Saturday, March 28, 2009

This is to Amber and Aubree who are the only two who read my blog :)


I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

What Makes Something Valuable?

A few hours ago I decided to go swimming with my roommate. I got down to the pool and in the locker room I discovered I was missing something. My CTR ring was gone. I tried to talk myself out of the panic I felt coming on and decided that there was nothing I could do at the pool. I would just have to wait until after I was done there and could get back to my apartment and see if I had taken the ring off before I left to go swimming.

Nobody panic, I found my ring on my dresser. Before I got home though as I was driving I told myself that if I couldn't find my ring I would just go and get a new one, but that wouldn't have made me feel any better. I started to think about what makes something valuable to us. Is it how much we have spent on it? Not for me. For me it is the memories/experiences I have had with it. Another CTR ring, even if it had been exactly the same wouldn't have worked.

Just out of curiosity I got onto the Distribution Center's website to see how much CTR rings were, this is after I had mine on my finger again :). I found many different styles of rings and many different price ranges:
This ring and the two above it were $20
This is a 14k gold ring and it costs $175 with the discount!
This is my ring. I think when my mom bought it for me she spent $14.
I can still remember the day I got it. I was going to have my birthday at Girls Camp and although I was excited it felt weird. I had always spent my birthday with family, ALL the family :), and not being able to be with them was hard. I didn't think that anyone would remember that it was my birthday because we were doing so much at Girls Camp. Little did I know that they had planned a special birthday celebration for me. They had made cupcakes, my mom sent up presents, balloons, and candy. One of the presents was my CTR ring. I was so excited to have a CTR ring that wasn't green and didn't make your fingers turn green that I put it on immediately. It fit perfectly and has stayed on my left hand for several years until a couple of moths ago when I decided to try it on my right hand. I didn't want people to think I was engaged if they only took a quick look at my left hand, but I didn't like it so it is back on my left hand :) It has had a special place on my left ring finger for as long as I have had it. When I put it one, even if I put it on straight it moves over into its spot.
Ever since I got this ring I have had this dream that the man I marry will propose by asking if his ring can take the place of the CTR ring and that his ring will have an engraving of "CTR" in it. I know this is stupid and it sounds even stupider written down, but in my mind it seems romantic :D.
My CTR ring is worth so much to me. I look at it and remember all of the wonderful, and not so wonderful, times I have had with it on. To me that is what makes something valuable, not the price, but the memories you have.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Aubree got FOOD!!!!!!

So Aubree got a package today that she has been waiting for, for days. It was a very large box and when I said that she got a lot of food she said her mom also sent medication. Do you want to know the amount of "medication" she got? One small bottle!
The thing next to it is a hair elastic so you can see the general size of the bottle :)

She got so much food!!! I am so excited for her. So I decided to post pictures of all the food she received from her loving family.

Yay, Aubree has food :)
SURPRISE
This is all of it!
Granola
Cookies!!! Polly want a CRACKER :)
How about some spice mixes?
Dried Fruit
Mmm, Muffins
Sticky Buns :D
BISCUITS A Whole loaf of Bread (Made from almond flour of course)
Almond Flour
And finally, but most definitely not least, the note her brother wrote her.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Am I Just Hurting Myself?

There are times that we know we are hurting ourselves. There is no way around it you are just setting yourself up for disaster, but there are those times when what we are doing could go both ways. Is it going to cause heart ache in the long run or joy that can't be measured? Nobody wants to cause more pain for themselves, but sometimes we do it anyways.

I have spent so much time the last few years think and dreaming about a certain other person that now I don't know how to stop it. I have this deep dreading that this obsession, for lack of a better word, is just going to hurt me when he comes back and looks at me like I am the weirdest person he has ever seen. I don't know what to do. I can't get him off my mind. Just when I think I am succeeding I hear or see something that reminds me of him and all those feelings come back.

I don't want to be setting myself up for disaster, but I can't help thinking that I am. HELP!!!!!!!!!